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0bv10u5 15 0bv10u5 - Its Music - Download-it - Upload-it

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This is Massive Guide To Tools, Toolz, Yup Yap

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Well Well, Your one of the lucky few that managed to wander into my lovely compendium of Knowledge, Music, Unmentionable Things... Hide Ur Sham3z...... As well as my own musings and insane r4mblings from someone who is always a bit wavey ... that also means that you managed to cr4ck the code (or lack thereof) of the broadcast and GIT puzzles.... which of course means nothing.... whenever i choose to drop, flop, and set up shop is of course up to me, aaannd will always be 100% RANDOM lol hell, even i will suprise my self im sure .... so enjoy your browsings and always make sure you have learned something........ The next =derwindows= in this set is the contact inf0z of all of the lovely Peoples( or furs if thats your bag baby, we dont judge!) as well as myself....

Myth 0f 3

The 3 Grand Poobahs Of Ze Company Skath ....

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FenrirTheinsomniac = This is his Sh4dow L1brary of course =please mind the stretching of its oh gawd no hole as that is reser. only for him!

Email :: 'FenrirTheinsomniac@secmail.pro'
Telegram :: '@F3nsD3d'
IRC :: 'FenrirTheinsomniac'

LilMamma = Whatever You Do Dont Piss Her Off.... i'll never hear the end of it... ##which will force an early intro to my oh gawd no hole .... <F.I>##

EMAIL :: ' rperryal11@gmail.com'

Lucky Is Lucky of course

EMAIL :: 'chrisflem805@gmail.com'

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Clerks, Geeks, Freaks, & of course Librarians ( Mmmhmm)

Currently there is a stoopid amount of open slots here so if you wold like to voulenteer as a contributor or maintainer, full time sexeh librarian , or not so ... feel free to contact any of the myth of 3 as scene on t.v and up above there, and schwiggity schwooty you will be contacted ... and in some cases harrased [seriously i think fenrir has a problem ] by one of them [ Usually will be fenrir..... seriously he has a problem ]

Stacks'O'Wonder = Have a good wander, never know what you may or may not find ..... still surpises me sometimes what may have ended up in there!!

<_3rr__> Appendix <__3RR_>

Wandering further into the building, you notice a large sign reading ' Reference Desk/Tourguide ' As you casually scroll through this strange Building that Just...you know...appeared ... and a friendly dude in a full body wolf suit welcomes you and invites you in (at least you think that was a full suit..) You head towards the broken down loan desk , its in the center of the large entrance hall as one would expect from a library, and it looks like it has been through many years of abuse ... and service... standing .. errr... floating immediatly behind this desk is ... a robot!? Looking closer at it you notice that its face? seems to be glitching in hilarious and sometimes frightening ways .... It utters a tinny and hollow greeting that you do not really pay attention to... i mean come on... a friggin robot... like a real mass effect type rob0t ...

As you stand at the desk you notice that the bots stomach is in fact a display that displays a readout of the units name : RefBotto Lotto ... and with what would appear to be a directory list of somekind. It is mostly corrupted but thankfully the the titles of the directories are still visible ( hmmmm convenient) ....
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<_3rr__> C3rb3ru5Prjct <__3RR_>

Most Of This Data Is ... Like.... UMMMMMM... *SIGHHHHH* REDACTED Or Has Been Tampered With <STARTING DDRECOVERY TO GATHER MISSING DATA ....12345 ... FAIL >>> Yeah we cannot recover it.... *SIGHHHHHHHHH* sorry about it .....
DevOp5/Team

Redacted hmmm

Contact Info: N/A

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Status:

_Init__ Phase

Documentation:

<_3rr__> Gamin'N'QQ'in <__3RR_>

*SIGHHHH* This Category Is Here For Anything Gaming and Like.... UMmmmm Th3 QQ'z

<_3rr__> How-Toz N How-Doz <__3RR_>

This is The Directory For All Your Tootz And Lootz Needs

Here we have some interesting beginners tradecraft

lectures

/home/fenrirtheinsomniac/Documents/Sams-class/124LecturesSum09.doc

Projects

/home/fenrirtheinsomniac/Documents/Sams-Class/124ProjectsSum09.doc

/home/fenrirtheinsomniac/Documents/Sams-Class/123projectsForl24sum09.doc

<_3rr__> Lost_Souls_Emporium <_3RR

Another Pop-up Sh40p Operated By Fenrir, He Does Get Around... it features primarily alot of up and coming artists/bands/DJ's From Youtube, Iheartrdio, and 'Other' Sources he touts proudly.. Also Functions as a hub for the Internet Radio Broadcast of the same name
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Graphic Novel/MetaGame Idea

=Main Idea=

A graphic novel story frame that ties into a video game && radio broadcasts, and a full hnb dir ( this one) that is told via a seasoned or episodic format. The story will be rng based for Main Character story arcs , as well as minor story events ...
=Major Events && Minor Events=

These will drastically alter the story arc (for good or bad) using a rng mechanic (to be determined) to select the outcome of the event. These may affect only the 'main characters' or only 'story environment' only 'secondary characters' or a mixture of both or may even affect nothing at all within the story arc.

=Minor Events=

These will function the same as the major events, affecting more of the flavor or side story that is going on.

=Meta_Br3aks=

These are going to where the HNB dir comes in to play, as well as the the tie ins with the radio broadcast and game frames - These will also function as the framework between the different avenus of exposition...

=Episodic_Releases=

I am thinking about doing these in a seasonal or episodic release cycle, kinda similar to tell tale's style of games. Might be a bit of a stretch to keep the meta/4'th wall breaking aspect of the idea , so may be changed or evolved as it goes on

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<<Main_Characters>> Persons Of Interest

<<< Chris_Lcky>>> Member of the 3 friends

Age:30??
Nationality:American
Quotables: 'Listen Here You Ass Crack'
Known_Residence: Caliofornia
Bio:

An outspoken happy go-lucky artist, Enjoys cracking jokes and telling stories , and of course drawing as he spends his time listening to music with Johnny in his 'office' . Like johnny he has a bit of a rockier past that he hides with his artwork and humour . He funtions as the teams premier obtainer of things, always having in hand something that someone will want , or needs.

<<< Rose_Healer >>> Member of the 3 friends

Age:28
Nationality: American
Known-Residence: California
Bio:

Very energetic and outspoken person, with a very big heart that often leads to her getting hurt more often then not . She has Known johnny for the better part of 10+ years, the two have been been through the shit together so to speak. Always making sure everyone is taken care of in an almost dodeing fashion, placeing her square in the healer role of the team.

<<<FenrirTheinsomniac>>> Enigmatic Shopkeeper??
<<<Johnny_Vendetta>>> Member of the 3 friends

=Bio=

A quiet recluse who spends way to much time in his own thoughts he admits. Spends most of his time sitting in his garage or 'office' as he loves to call it, listening to music and writing,hacking, or playing games if he can squeeze them in of course. He functions as the local computer guru and freelance 'netsec specialist' as he puts it. As of late he has seemingly fell off the grid even more so than he usually is, which of course draws the attention of only a few ......

Age:29
Nationality:Irish/American
Current_Residence:California
Quotes: 'Schwiggity Schwooty, Im Coming For Dat Booty' 'Waf Waf Wyooo' 'Oh Nos Its Spinndly Johnny'

<_3rr__> Schwetty Ragw Dumpz <__3RR_>

THe Hub for any or all hilarious over reactions to anything mildy infuriating

<_3rr__> When_I_Was_Your_Age <__3RR_>

The preverbial Grandpa storiez... Flex That Age !!!

<_3rr__> Music Lyrics Digest <__3RR_>

Filled WIth Pure Lyric GoodNess ,Even hard to find tracks

GucciHighWaters -

Hurt -
i'm not getting better -
I Hate Me Too -

I Can Never Change -
Way Out Of My head -

Gobby -

Fake Love -

Nobody -

Ricks w Jshu -

Don't Let Me Fall Asleep -

Gaygee -

Demons -

Digital Daggers -

Angel -

Heaven Or Hell -

The Devil Within -

Papa Roach -

Help -

I think I need help
I'm drowning in myself[Verse 1]
Did someone turn the lights out?
Or is it just another dark cloud in my head?
'Cause I'm cut deep
My heart won't beat
Deep down low, it's killing me
If I wanna scratch out yesterday
I've got so much I need to say
I've got so much I need to say[Chorus]
I think I need help
'Cause I'm drowning in myself
It's sinking in
I can't pretend that I ain't been through hell
I think I need help
I'm drowning in myself[Verse 2]
They're preying on my weakness
Believe it
I'm thinking to myself, no, not again
And I won't keep listening when temptation's creeping in
If I wanna make it another day
I've got so much I need to say
I've got so much I need to say
[Chorus]
I think I need help
'Cause I'm drowning in myself
It's sinking in
I can't pretend that I ain't been through hell
I think I need help
I'm drowning in myself[Bridge]
I think I need help
'Cause I put myself through hell[Chorus]
I think I need help
'Cause I'm drowning in myself
It's sinking in
I can't pretend that I ain't been through hell
I think I need help[Outro]
I think I need help

Falling Apart -

I'll follow you out of the dark.
I tried my way but I keep falling apart!
All that I see, is the wickedness around me.
I refuse to believe, the apocalypse inside of me.
I can't even trust myself.
I'm burning in my skin.
Standing at the gates of hell, but nobody will let me in.
I'll follow you out of the dark.
I tried my way but I keep falling apart!
I'll follow you, with all of my heart.
I'm tired of my ways cause I keep falling and falling apart!
I stand here again, forsaken in a place
That feels like I can never win.
I'm reaching for a saving grace.
I can't even trust no one.
I need to rise above.
I don't think I'm good enough, to feel your perfect love.
I'll follow you out of the dark!
I tried my way but I keep falling apart!
I'll follow you, with all of my heart!
I'm tired of my ways cause I keep falling and falling apart!
I'm falling and falling apart.
I'm falling and falling apart.
I'm falling apart.
Your love's a fire, it's alive and I'm burning in it.
I'm in the ashes of mercy; I'm caught in it.
I fall hard and you carry me away.
I fall part so you can set me free.
Your love's a fire, it's alive and I'm burning in it.
I'm in the ashes of mercy; I'm caught in it.
I fall hard and you carry me.
I fall apart so you can set me free.
I follow you out of the dark!
I tried my way but I keep falling apart!
I'll follow you with all of my heart!
I'm tired of my ways, cause I keep falling and falling apart!
I'm falling and falling apart!
Without you I'm falling apart!

<_3rr__> Person3l Ja4ckets && Dossiers <__3RR_>

Get To Know The Myth 3 And All The Freaks,Geeks, and Yes...Sexeh Librarians

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Greetings, this document has been created to serve as a way of keeping track of the organization known as SkathSec and serve an additional role of enumerating its , at the time of this transmission, unknown numbers of its membership ... Early observation has shown the group will be a harden target , keeping it self completely insolated .... Only 1 member has been observed with any 'official' capacity .. <conn_term> ...... <<Incoming_Transfer>> ........

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Known_Alias: FenrirTheinsomniac
Potential_Rank: Leadership
Age: Unknown At This Time
Species??: Unknown ( ????)
Place.Of.Origin: Unknown At This Time
Observations Of P.O.I

This FenrirTheinsomniac has the honor of being the first one that has been observed in the field, carrying out the agenda of SkathSec, whatever it may be , as currently its MOI is not known.
Subjects movements seem to be deliberate , and vary tactile , which this immediatly shows that he is moving with high 'official ' capacity... Looking At A Leader Here Folks, Or One Of them at Min
Subject is very careful with his movements, so careful that as of the time of this writing, his alias is the only known thing about him. Monitoring of chatter of older, well known subjects has revealed that like skathsec itself, he just appeared , immediatly carrying out his agenda

He seemingly has a knack for dissappearing just as rapidly as he shows up. Efforts to Pic-Id him have been..... tedious at best && highly frustrating at worst .... Further monitoring of the other groups chatter is recommended, as there seems to be scuttle butt about him not being entirely human ... In one very garbled transmission ... 'werewolf' was tossed around very excitedly .. another had 'werewolf' was swapped for 'worgen' ### seriously..like from wow... wow worgen?.... lel

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<_3rr__> Pr0n Z0ne <__3RR_>

Slip right on in here fap to your hearts content... No need to hide your sh4m3 here...Unless thats your thing... no jolly judge here

Furry Fun - Yiff Yapp N Fap -

Anthro-MF-

Straight Yiff

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Feral-MF

Straight-Feral-Yiff

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Feral-MM

Anything Goes Male On Male mm

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Feral-Mixed

Anything Goes Feral Fuck Pile

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Anthro-MM-

Anything Featuring Bone with Bone Yiff mmm

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Anthro-Mixed-

Anythign Goes Furpile- Murr

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=Humanz Body Works=

^Solo-Male^

Anything Celebrating The Male Body

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*Solo-Female*

Anything Celebrating The Female Body

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<_3rr__> Sk4thS3c B3atdown <_3RR__>

The P1tch Files For A Celebrity Deathmatch type of tvshow

<_3rr__> A Note On The Oh Gawd No Hole <__3RR_>

*Fenrir Growls As You approach but then quickly switches gears a predatory smirk spreads across his maw as he glitches a bit and lights a cigarrette , blowing out a large cloud as he rumbles out ' Ahh one of my....guests... Well arent we lucky to have gotten such a wonderous, glorious chance at the knowledge i have spent ... *his head cocks to the side as he thinks for a moment * well it would seem like ever since i was a pup, so yeah.... we will go with that hrmm * his smirk somehow widens even further to your astonishment .......

You attempt to head even further in to the room labeled The Oh Gawd No Hole , immeadiatly blocked by fenrir, who glitched in front of you, and immediatly seeming more daunting in size than earlier in your conversation , growl even more imposing and a huge cloud of cigerette smoke covers your vision , with fenrir this close to you can smell ...his scent? a mixture of tobacco, fine whiskey's and something else over whelms you as he rumbles out ' It was made quite clear to stay away from my Oh Gawd No Hole Curious One.. wasnt Hrmmm? ' You nod rapidly , his trademark smirk replacing the sour and cold look on his lupine like face as he backs up releasing his grip on your shirt taking another long drag of the seeming never ending cigerrette, he glitches alot more rapidly for a few while he does this ... ' good good for you see that room is a... fire-jail.. if you were..... for The D4rk3st, M0st Depraved things and files, and i believe some people as well ... that i have come across as well.... And you see i have become ... acustomed to them , especially the squenchy , stretchy , ...hot... stretching ... * his breathing becomes visibly more labored as he starts to pant and drool a bit * that is required .... to bring in more material ... to of which i am currently the only qualified one here, and indeed amongst the staff ... *his ears perk up a bit * ' We do however, release certain items in small releases to select guests ... and verrrry limited in time .. * He leans in close as he walks by patting your shoulder firmly.. you seem very intruigued by the strange ....

<_3rr__> Stumble_D0wn5 <__3RR_>

Have a Weird, Fine Tuned Stumble Upon ? Well Share That Shit ! Other Similar Services Accepted As Well!

<_3rr__> wtfdrugs <__3RR_>

Hilarious Drug Induced Tales That Have Been Scoured From Across The Reaches Of The InterNet ANd The Great Void ( As FenrirTheinsomniac mentions)

<_3rr__> Millions'N'Billions <__3RR_>

Hmm Apparently Strange, Hermit Librarians That Appear Out Of NoWhere Also TrumpSIck...

<_3rr__> Groovin'N'Tubb1n <__3RR_>

Alternate Music That Didn't Make The Cut For FenrirTheinsomniacs LostSouls Emporium .. Primarily featuring mellow tracks that one would often have on in the bathtub...

<_3rr__> Bed B4th & Whhyyyyy <__3RR_>

Results Of Recent D4rkW3bz Cr4wls .. Be Prepared....

<_3rr__> Spinnin'n'Winnin <__3RR_>

A Random Assortment of 'activiies' && 'Things' that happen all the time but are never noticed .. So Strap In Tight To Your Spinny Chairs And Read ON !

' Oh whats This? Did you hurt your Knee Somehow

<_3rr__> SpinningRound Da Office With FenrirTheinsomniac <__3RR_>

Join FenrirTheinsomniac As Spins Around The Office Abducting Them and Interviews Them In His New Dual Spinny {patent Pending}

<_3rr__> Unfortunate Fenrir Encounters <__3RR_>

Incident Reports Of Many Encounters With FenrirTheinsomniac.... He is really really ... uhm....known isnt he??

<_3rr__> WeCouldntMakeTHisUp <__3RR_>

SuperS3rial... We Cant ..... Its Too Good it has to be fake content here ... right?

<_3rr__> Getting Sweaty With These Techno Beats! With Sweaty Richard! <__3RR_>

.......Holy Shit Is Richard.....Simmons?

<_3rr__> Package_Surfin_ <__3RR_>

Hangin Loose Anu5 Deep In THe Tubage bra!

<_3rr__> Drug Storiez <__3RR_>

Harrowing and Often Hilarity Tales Of Drug Induced.... Incidents .. ScouredFrom Across THe Webs And THe DNet and The Void

<_3rr__> Linux Basics <__3RR_>

I'm Going Going Back Back To Linux

<_3rr__> Advanced Linux <__3RR_>

Debian-Beard Of Wisdom Not Needed but Arch-Wizard Face Scarfe Is Fully Recommended!

<_3rr__> Grubby Grubz <__3RR_>

Get Your Grubby Pawz All Over and Mayhaps Inside Your Grub... mmm yasss

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Staff Rooms And Other Misc

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F3ns Gl3n Where F3ns D3d B4by

Fens Private Most Assuredly Iniguing Quarters that you feel inextricably drawn too, his alluring scent is powerful here which draws you in even closer .... Hopefully The Reaction Isnt Too Bad..... THeres always the Most Assuredly Insane Amount of wonderous knowledge and tings he has accrued over the millenia as the operator of Both The Sh4d0w L1brary and THe Lost Souls Emporium ... NOMNOM Knowledge THe directory bot churps as it starts to drift towards the Fens Chambers, echoing out 'Waif WUff Wuff Wuyoo... Wuffy Bad TOuch ... Dr Grabbby Paws... Waif Waif Wuyoooo*' and suddenly explodes once it reaches the entrance. Sending Shrapnel and other smaller pieces of the poor robot in all directions, narrowly missing you by inches as you hit the deck . Staring in silent Shock and Awe you bareley notice the new replacement bot slip its way next to you, it chirrups out a amazing different voice , Almost female in tone ( if bots can have sexes? ) Hello Seeker Of Fenrirs Combined Knowledge .... {It May Be Against Your Better Judgement, But You Ask What The Hell Was That?}

The bots digitized face and directory read outs glitch and sputter a bit as the robot spins around in place for a second ......... <ENQUIRY ABOUT PREVIOUS MODEL BOTS INTERACTION WITH fENRIR RECIEVED ......123456... PASSED...OK >oH yes ...that.....Welll...... The only thing i can say about that ...... is well......... You tend to find unique ways of ..... <ENUMERATING CLEVER RESPONSES ....123456..Passed... Ok >> Entertaining Onself After A long Time Of BoreDome ANd Solitude .... <WARN> Rest Of Data On Dosun Fenrir Is No Longer Parsible / Non Existent ! Please Use DBPKG To Add Necessary Files..... <WARN> Fenrir May Have Taken a while to come out of his shell so the accounts are varied and everywhere... look around ......

[You Decide To Belay Any Other Interactions With The Bot, And Press Forward , the Alluring Pull Of This Wuff Is Overtaking your sense, driving you forward]

=F.I= oWo .... whats this? wasnt expecting anyone to make it this far .... uh wait one moment... just wait for the bounce ... < scootch my ass into the groove aaagain.... > ahhh there we go ... ahem... seriously though i do applaud that you my dear reader ( fuck it , in reality its just gonna be me .. hi future me ! wait....) have slogged it through the insane amount of what i and my cohorts pass off as comedy ( again in reality its just me working on this ) .... and pushed even farther passed the out of nowhere choose your own adventure style entries ( what can i say ... its a new thing im trying out *shrug* ) with mild inuendo sprinkled oh so zestily throught to add some flava! .... for a steamy crack at this old worgen eh? *he lets out a deep rumbling laugh * Well as i am always up for a good ol roll

[ You Take The Chance Of This New Bots Talkative...Programmming? And Start To Ask A Few Questions ....]
Im A Mess .... Im Sorry....

Hello? .. Are you there?? Shit still feels weird after all these years addressing the pages as if they are alive ... they technically do come alive after anything is added to them .. or is it me directly addressing my own self , Able to sus things out and solidify my choices, before of course making them or ... Listen... I'm just trying to get in touch man, i've been so fucking, so fuckin down lately , like i dont know whats happening... im just so tired all the time.... i just wanna sleep ... i just lay there quiet .. i cant speak cause everyone around me is passed out and my mind is fuckin raging ..... and as i sit here greeting the sunrise after tucking in the moon for what seems like the millionth time, typing away, filling up whole directories ( in this case , literally a whole entire HNB Directory) with my inane thoughs .... I don't even know why i even write anymore , most times typing just to keep, well... to keep my slightly neurotic and hyper mind passified , as i watch [sunrise #4522897972343 lazily drift ... .. I think it ... i think it might me time for me to leave just call it quits.. Im sick of this , its the same fuckin day every day .... I think i sleep .. I cant be sure though... its all the same now though..... Im tired man.... I think it .. you dont wanna hear it .. im a mess im sorry man .... but no one really hears me you know? ..... I speak... at least i think i speak ...... but no one hears me ... Most of the time they usually only have ears for themselfs and what i can/ or am doing for them ..... Never hearing anything i really say... i am done speaking... content on living mostly trapped inside my own head, greeting my old faithful companion sunrise , sit and type , ad infenitum ... All the while deploying my emotional honeypots , and walls ... always attempting to show happy happy happy me ..... which is of course only ever for the benefit of my peers ..... All smiles and chill for my peers, saving the cries for the moon, sun, and journals ... as i medicate and tip tap type my pain away ... When i do manage to actually sleep it is plagued with nightmares, forced to relive that evening and half of the day Over..and Over... And Over.... and Fucking Over Again ... Panic, Feeling Dead Weight, then silence, crushing silence , flashing forwards to me sitting with my father for the last time, the numbness i felt immediatly comes flooding back, wanting to scream and falling apart on the inside .... Eventually waking up hurting, and shot out emotionally. Always fighting to get out of bed, and most of of the time i never make it out ... the remaining times, power through the pain , get up , medicate, and go through my crap exsistence of just....well exsisting .... i am scarily good at just existing ... heavily medicated .... some may argue and apropos if my existance medicated or otherwise is justified ... still puzzlees me out everyday .... thankfully my existance problem does allow me to write paragraphs such as these, so when i do bow out of this game of ro-chambo of life, there is something to jazz up my empire of dirt and self loathing ...... fhfh

*sighs with a rumble* Well i must now bid you adiu for now my journal and dear readers as it is now time to put on fakesona as another day of my useless life is ... here ... for some reason ... the verdict is still of course out on that little chestnut ... so i leave with a song that is not only topical to what i have just written about, but has quickly become a song that hits close to home , that i connect emotionally with it on a deep level ... its my jam baby@@@@!!! So enjoy my non exsistant readers and of course my depressed self, you big musky sad worg you! Lyrics In The Lyrics Wing! <<<==F.I==>>>

well... quick addendum ... delay for music to go with my whining as i still need to actually figure out if i can post actual raw files or if they have to be linked ....

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= The Music Dump Mega Repo =

Yup This is the combined Library Of Current And Past L1b Staff and Contrib's Left Here FOr Muscial Glory -One Simple Rule = Take A Penny Leave A Penny Public Rules Apply... Mean If You Download A Track, Put Something Back! NOt Pocket Lint Or Old Used Condoms... waif Wuffff .... Huff

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= Lucky Ducky Art Show=

Major Complete Art From Our Dear Boi Is Showcased here For Further Spotlight as Well Misc Doodlez

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Painting :: Art :: Self Hatred

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Mr-EasyBakes Fresh Crispy Tunez

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<_err__> Roster Status <__ERR_>

Agent Scheduling - Agent - Current Case Load

FenrirTheinsomniac - Currently Two Requests Booked - Unavail - Expiditing Current Load -

<<UPDATE>> Still Very Booked As Well As Plagued By Tantrums Surrounding Him ... So Not Free For A While One Would Imagine

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<_err__> Hire A Op3r4t1v3 <__ERR_>

Well well , Whatarya Buyin' You sneaky sneaky rebel you! ... Your Here In This Section ... Appropriatly Titled I Must Add!!! ... because you have need of specialized skills of course!!! *sigh* and im sure the free cookies as well...... drop a line here with your plea ... cast your line as it were.... depending on the state of our poolz you make hook yerself a goodin.... **W4RN x W4RN ** During l0W Pool Conditions High Probability To Catch FenrirTheinsomniac which is not a failstate type of thing .... its just how you feel about it ..... recommended either catch-N-Release ( he may like that ) or keep ( will like that as well, basically fenrir is like herpes, meet it once , hypercling)

==Excepted Syntax Only Pl0x== <Your WorkOrder> The meat and potoatoes to any good request is what you ACTUALLY need accomplished right <Time-Span> What Yourz Timez <PaYment> and the 3'rd wheel how do you plan to pay

Now if you absolutley feel the overwhelming need to add more details that what we requested ..... then you can fill in this area with it... seriously thought.... all we need is 3 simple paramaters ....... good for you good for us eh? ====

zomg windbag! *sigh* You Can Also Use Another Space If Needed .... Still Will Be Looked At With Curiosity....

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